I didn’t quite notice it until today but God truly has made a transformation in me.
Ever since I recommitted to Christ in September 2016, I wanted to start sharing my faith.
But I’m super awkward, have social anxiety, and a hardcore introvert.
I also didn’t know how to start talking about my faith or didn’t feel knowledgeable enough.
Today, while driving for lyft, I met a woman suffering from depression and I told her my story.
The story of my toxic marriage and how that was the darkest moment in my life.
How I contemplated suicide on a daily basis.
How God not only delivered me from that marriage but also drastically changed my life both on the inside and outside.
She asked me questions about my story and about God’s healing.
At the end of our ride, she asked for prayer in a general sense.
One of those, “Keep me in your prayers,” kind of request.
I offered to pray for her right there in the car.
We both cried.
My heart used to be so hard.
Compassion wasn’t a word that existed in my world. It was every man for himself.
It was, “Just like how I am to deal with my own consequences, good or bad, their situation is for them to deal with.”
When I found Christ I lived under fear and doubt .
Fear of not being good enough. Fear of judgement from others, how a person like me could say, “I have found Christ.”
Fear of doubt, not believing in myself or God to go out there and share this amazing gift of love that God has for all of us.
A year ago, I never would have shared my story IN PERSON (online is sooo much easier.. not that I shared my faith online that often either).. let alone to a COMPLETE stranger.
I never would have talked about my faith in Christ.
I never would have offered to pray for anyone.
I can honestly say that this encounter, this courage, this moment, it was God-led. Had I allowed myself to get in the way, none of this would have never happened. This was God. And I am so thankful because I know that just as God has healed me from my depression, he can heal her too.
Transformation takes humility.
Transformation involves healing.
Transformations takes being uncomfortable and stretching your comfort zone.
Transformation means trusting God with your heart.
These aren’t easy and it’s a process.
I’m not here to gloat or boast or to say that I’m perfect.
But I encourage you guys to challenge yourselves to evolve in your faith.
Reflect the love that God has for you.
The healing he has given you.
The transformation he had made in you.
I know it’s an area that I will continue to pray for strength and confidence in.
Matthew 5:16 (ESV) says
“In the same way, let your light shine before others, so that they may see your good works and give glory to your Father who is in heaven.”
You’ve been saved.
And now you can save others.
Share the good news.
God is so so good.